????帕瑞克越來越多地發現自己一個人在戰斗。“最初很艱難，”他說。“我們過去經常討論他和我怎樣形成一種有益的張力。知道他不在身邊，我不得不自我約束。他知道，這對我有一定的挑戰性。他和我談論這個問題，還嘗試著傳遞他的樂觀情緒，幾乎感染了我。”

????在帕瑞克的引領下，Magoosh公司的現金流在2012年5月由負轉正，他自己還額外募集了25萬美元。“那一刻，我開始信心滿滿地相信，我們能夠做一項特別的事業，”帕瑞克說。到了這時，兩位合作伙伴只是偶爾進行一次電子郵件交流。

????7月份，李發布了一張照片。照片中，他躺在醫院的病床上，用枕頭支撐起身體。照片中的李裸露著胸膛，綠色的病號服被拉低至腰部，鼻子上插了一個氧氣管，雙腿被在白色繃帶包裹著。大約一個月后，在8月8日那天，李在加州大學舊金山分校醫學中心做完了第五次化療，這次化療持續了8個小時。他每天服用20片藥丸，目的只是是為了抗擊化療的副作用。

????隨后就再也沒有任何消息。李陷入了沉默。此時距離他的確診日期不到8個月。但在Facebook頁面上看不到他的留言，也沒有收到電子郵件。“我當時尋思著，好一陣子沒有他的消息了，”帕瑞克說。“我開始變得緊張起來，但不敢多想。我還是定期給他發送一封電子郵件說，‘嘿，我想你。希望一切正在好轉。’他不需要作出回應，因為我不想讓他覺得自己背負著什么義務。”

????圣誕假期過去了。1月30日，與Magoosh團隊共進晚餐時，帕瑞克收到李發來的一封電子郵件，他說他即將出院，病情看起來正在好轉。2月21日，為了慶祝李35歲的生日，Magoosh團隊拍攝了一段祝福視頻，還發到了Facebook上。但當時李已經病得很重，甚至沒有留言致謝。

????帕瑞克與李的最后一次談話生在他于2013年3月4日去世前兩周左右。李在電話上聊了整整一個小時。“他聽起來思路清晰。他詢問我整個團隊的表現。這是一次非常好、非常積極的交談。他告訴我兩件事：他希望我持續專注于企業正確的層面，還希望我不要狹隘地思考問題。我當時萬萬沒有預料到兩周后發生的事情。”

????李去世后，帕瑞克與李的未婚妻溫迪?林，以及普爾-莫埃齊一起創建了漢蘇?李獎學金，以紀念他們的朋友。這項獎學金為加州大學伯克利分校哈斯商學院的MBA學生提供助學金和指導，幫助他們全職創業，而不是尋找實習機會——就像李和帕瑞克在2009年夏天所做的選擇一樣。

????帕瑞克領導下的Magoosh公司則在繼續茁壯成長。Magoosh公司從來沒有見過李的員工現已超過見過他的員工。這家公司依然在產生正現金流，最初的5人團隊已擴充為13位全職員工，GRE備考服務已取得初步進展，GMAT備考產品的影響力與日俱增。這家備考平臺目前擁有超過200段授課視頻，1,000多段解疑視頻（與考試相關的每個問題都有一個對應的視頻）。Magoosh的客戶來自150多個國家，70%的用戶是美國本土考生。

????李留給公司的是一段刻骨銘心的回憶，以及一個借助親密朋友轉化為現實的愿景。“我每天都會想念他，”帕瑞克說。“我經常回想他對我說過的那些話。我仿佛還能看到他的一笑一顰，有時似乎還能聽到他的聲音。他說過的一些話已經深深留在我的腦海里，我把它作為驅使我不斷推動企業發展的不竭動力。我知道他希望我不斷前行。除此以外，我別無選擇。但愿他從天國俯視人間時，會說上一句，‘這就是我想要的。’”（財富中文網）

????譯者：葉寒

????Increasingly, Parikh found himself alone. "At first, it was hard," he says. "We always talked about how he and I had a good tension. Knowing that he wasn't around, I had to keep myself in check. He knew it was a bit of a challenge for me. He would talk to me about it and tried to share his optimism and almost infect me with his optimism."

????Parikh led Magoosh to a cash flow positive state by May 2012 and raised $250,000 of additional funding on his own. "At that point, I started to gain a lot of confidence that we can do something special here," says Parikh, whose only contact with his partner became an occasional email exchange.

????In July, Lee posted a photo of himself propped up with pillows in a hospital bed. He was bare-chested in the photo, his green hospital gown pulled down to his waist. There was an oxygen tube in his nose and his legs were wrapped in white bandages. A month later, on August 8, Lee had completed his fifth chemo cycle, an eight-hour procedure at UCSF. He was taking 20 pills a day just to combat the side effects of the chemo.

????Then, nothing. Lee fell silent. It was less than eight months since his diagnosis. But there were no more Facebook posts, no more emails. "I remember thinking I hadn't heard from him in awhile," says Parikh. "I started getting nervous but didn't want to. I would email periodically and say, 'Hey, I'm thinking of you. Hope things are getting better.' He didn't need to respond because I didn't want him to feel any obligation."

????The Christmas holiday passed, and on Jan. 30, while at a dinner with the Magoosh team, Parikh received an email from Lee saying he was returning from the hospital and that things were looking better. The Magoosh team filmed a celebratory video for Lee's 35th birthday on February 21 and posted it on Facebook. But Lee fell too ill to ever acknowledge it.

????In Parikh's last conversation with Lee, two weeks before he died on March 4, 2013, Parikh was on the phone for a full hour. "He sounded very coherent. He asked me how the team was doing. It was a very good, positive conservation. He told me two things: He wanted to make sure I would stay focused on the right aspects of the business, and he wanted me not to think too small. I never expected anything to happen over the next two weeks."

????After Lee's death, Parikh would work closely with Lee's fiancée, Wendy Lim, and Pour-Moezzi, to create the Hansoo Lee fellowship to honor their friend. The fellowship provides a stipend and mentorship to help Berkeley-Haas MBA students pursue entrepreneurial ventures full-time instead of pursuing an internship -- just as Lee and Parikh did during the summer of 2009.

????Magoosh continues to thrive under Parikh. There are now more employees at Magoosh who never met Lee than those who did. The company remains cash flow positive and has grown from a team of five to 13 full-time staffers, and it is making a big dent in the GRE space and starting to have a bigger impact in the GMAT prep world. The platform has more than 200 lesson videos and over 1,000 explanation videos, one for every test question. Magoosh boasts customers from more than 150 countries, with 70% of users based in the U.S.

????What remains of Lee are the memories and a legacy carried out by a friend. "I miss him every day," says Parikh. "I think about what he would say to me personally. I can see his mannerisms and sometimes hear his voice. There are some things he said that stick with me and I use them as fuel to just continue growing the business. I knew that what he wanted for me was to push forward. It didn't feel like there was another option, really. Hopefully, he is looking down and saying, 'This is what I wanted.'"